isn’t it funny how things that we never expect will happen to us end up hitting us right in the face?! irony, i suppose. i’ve never been a person who likes change, and i definitely try to avoid it, if at all possible. however, this time i wasn’t able to evade the impeding changes that were about to be thrust into my life…this change just so happened to rock my world.
what then are we to do? with our world turned upside down.
hold on…well, that is the goal. but that’s never easy. when someone you love hurts you so deeply, it becomes increasingly harder to forgive and move forward, or so seems to be the case for me. do i just forgive and forget? is that even possible with someone who is able to hurt so intimately? i honestly don’t know.
what i do know is this. if i hold onto my anger and un-forgiveness it will fester into bitterness, which is something much deeper and much uglier than anything i can possibly manage. so it seems that i have a choice. to wallow in un-forgiveness and become ever so bitter and hateful, or i can forgive and try to forget, and allow time to heal these deep wounds.
so here in my despair, the only thing left to do is get on my knees and ask Jesus to meet me here and to give me the strength, patience, forgiveness, and love that i lack. and i find comfort in knowing that he will. because Jesus loves me, this i know.